Barely got any sleep the whole night. Was tossing and turning in bed the whole night. Guess it is either my problems that was causing me another sleepless night or just in a new environment. But then I travel and have been in other hotels, so guess really the problem is this.
She called to find out how I was this afternoon. But I was terse and straight to the point. I would be seeking to divorce her. She asked me to take down the blog as she feels really ashamed about it. But I told her I would think about it. She told me that she would sign the divorce paperwork and said that she would not seek any alimony from me. She again begged that I do not blow it up. To be honest, I am thinking what my options are.
Right now, I am just like a zombie. I have been betrayed by someone who I thought would be there by my side when I was in my 60s and 70s. Someone who would I thought would be there when I was old and senile. But guess what, I have been hoodwinked. I miss my little gal. But then again, she was not mine to begin with. Only a father can love so deep. She may not be mine, but she will always be special to me. I guess only Fathers would understand what I am going through right now.
I read all the comments on the blog and to be honest, I wish I had the time to reply or comment. But I do like to thank everyone who has shown concern to me. I really appreciate it. It is hard going through this alone really and sometimes some of the things said have been very touching and offers of help or to listen to me are greatly appreciated. It shows that Singaporeans do care and it also shows that a majority of people do have morals still.